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CHRISTMAS TEARDROPS

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Music playing: Winter Sonata


IN MEMORY OF
Lucas Christopher Ross "Luke"
21
October 31, 1979 - April 3, 2001
Acute Bronchopneumonia












CHRISTMAS TEARS

.....(to the tune of Silver Bells)

Little Angel, busy angels
Dressed in heavenly style
In the air there's
A feeling of sadness.

Children dying,
Parents crying,
Trying hard just to smile,
And at every child's headstone you'll hear:

Christmas tears, Christmas tears
It's Christmas time and we're lonely.
Parents dream, hear them scream:
Please come back home Christmas day.

Angel halos, pretty halos
Blink a bright red and green
As the parents rush home
To their memories.

Hear the moms cry
See the dads try
Not to make a big scene
And above all the bustle you'll hear:

Christmas tears, Christmas tears
It's Christmas time and we're lonely
Parents dream, hear them scream:
Please come back home Christmas day.

2006 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001









ANGELS NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS

'Twas the night before Christmas when all through the house
My emotions were stirring, no one to arouse.
The stockings were hung from the chimney with care.
One stocking seemed lonely... my child wasn't there.

I was sleepy and nestled all snug in my bed
While visions of angels danced in my head.
I dreamt of the heavenly gifts he'd unwrap,
As I settled my brains for a long Christmas nap.

Since the day that he died my life had been shattered.
There was nothing much left that seemed really to matter.
I dosed off to sleep but awoke to a flash.
"Could this light be my child?" myself I did ask.

I gazed out my window at the new fallen snow.
"What was that light?" I wanted to know!
When what to my wondering eyes should appear
But a beautiful angel with luminous hair.

This angel was happy so lively and quick.
I knew that my child was no longer sick.
More gently than snowflakes his angel friends came
And he softly and tenderly called them by name.

They all stood before me in the snow and the wind
As I heard in the night the sweet message they send.
They want us to know that they heard our lone call
And they're really okay, not to worry at all.

As prayers that are prayed to heaven on high,
When they meet with a teardrop, mount to the sky.
So up to the clouds the angles they flew.
With a message of love for me and for you.

And then in a twinkling, they returned with their love.
They were dancing and prancing right up above.
Then all of the angels flew to the ground.
One entered my home without making a sound.

He was dressed all in white from his head to his foot.
His clothes were all glowing and he carried a book.
Great feathery wings he had on his back.
As he opened his book I sighed and I gasped.

His eyes how they twinkled his smile was so merry.
His cheeks were like roses but I was so weary.
His light and his touch made my heart overflow.
And his fluttering wings were as white as the snow.

As I stood there and watched him I felt a great peace
And a halo encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a sweet face and a wonderful grin
That beamed when he smiled from his ears to his chin.

His hair was so radiant and appeared to be silk.
I was in awe when I saw him, in spite of myself.
The spark in his eyes and the glow 'round his face,
Soon led me to know he was in a good place.

He spoke not a word but went straight to his work
As he checked off my name in his book... under HURT.
My sorrow and pain he perceived, I suppose,
As he gave me a hug and to the clouds he arose.

He joined his new friends and he gave a soft whistle
And away they all flew as I cried just a little.
But I heard him exclaim as he flew out of sight...
"Mom, we're visiting all the sad parents tonight."

2002 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










When you are sorrowful look again in your heart,
and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for
that which has been your delight.

~Kahlil Gibran









I WONDER IF

I wonder if you heard it?
Did you listen really well?
It's in every Christmas carol
And in every Christmas bell.

There is a sweet familiar voice.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to hear again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you smelled it?
Did you inhale really deep?
It's in every Christmas fragrance
And in every Christmas tree.

There is a sweet familiar scent.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to breathe again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you tasted it?
Did it linger on your lips?
It's in every Christmas candy
And in every Christmas sip.

There is a sweet familiar taste.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to kiss again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you felt it?
Did it brush you close enough?
It's in every Christmas teardrop
And in every Christmas hug.

There is a sweet familiar touch.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to hold again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you saw it?
Did you look at it tonight?
It's in every Christmas candle
And in every Christmas light.

There is a sweet familiar face.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to see again.
Just concentrate... with opened eyes.

2007 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001









WHERE IS CHRISTMAS

Where is Christmas?
Where did it go?
Where is the music?
Where is the snow?

Where is Santa?
Where is the cheer?
Where is the laughter?
Why aren't you here?

2003 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










The tears fall,
they're so easy to wipe off onto my sleeve,
but how do I erase the stain from my heart?

~ Unknown










ANOTHER LONELY DECEMBER

Another lonely December,
Waiting for Christmas to pass,
Staring out through the window,
At the cold beyond the glass.

Dreaming of the years gone by,
And things I love to remember,
Knowing this life will always bring,
Another lonely December.

2004 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










Let your tears come.
Let them water your soul.

~Eileen Mayhew








THE SILENCE OF CHRISTMAS MORNING

The silence of Christmas morning,
Echoes through my lonely soul.
No laughter or excitement,
Just the sound of growing old.

Growing old without my child,
No more light upon my face.
Oh how I miss Christmas morning,
In this abandoned... silent place.

I have memories of the laughter,
And the whispering joy within,
From noisy Christmas mornings,
But the memories have an end.

My child's life was quietly hushed,
Leaving us without any warning.
This one memory will always bring,
The silence of Christmas morning.

2004 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away.
Just let it out, my friend.

~Adabella Radici









ON THIS LONELY CHRISTMAS NIGHT

The rocking horse is put away.
The tricycle stands alone.
The little winter coats and hats
Have all become un-sewn.

The bicycle is in the shed.
The car is covered with a tarp.
The Christmas tree and ornaments
Are in the corner in the dark.

The games are in the closet.
The cell phone receives no calls.
The patchwork Christmas stocking
Hangs empty on the wall.

The guitar plays no music.
The new clothes are getting old.
The toys are all upon the shelf
With stories left untold.

The sled is covered up with snow.
The skis rest behind the door.
The gloves that used to warm those hands
Will warm those hands no more.

The candle's burning brightly.
The little tree has twinkle lights.
The urn rests there between them both
On this lonely Christmas night.

2007 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










What soap is for the body,
tears are for the soul.

~Jewish Proverb










CHRISTMAS EVE

It's Christmas Eve and I'm lonely
Remembering you tonight.
Precious memories make me smile
But this pain within I fight.

I wish I could play Santa Claus
Just one more time for fun.
And watch you open presents
But your life is over and done.

I know you are the one that died
But I also died... someway
And so did every Christmas Eve
And every special holiday.

We have no Christmas tree with lights
And we have no jingle bells.
We only have this loneliness,
Not dead... but a living hell.

I'll still wait for you tonight
To walk tall through that front door,
Bushing the snow off of your coat
And we'll have Christmas Eve once more.

2004 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










It is such a secret place,
the land of tears.

~Antoine de Saint-Exupery, The Little Prince









WE'RE ALL JUST CHRISTMAS PRESENTS

We're all just Christmas presents
Underneath the Christmas tree.
Waiting to be opened.
Waiting finally to be free.

The Christmas tree is heaven
Where unwrapped presents go.
The ornaments are angels
Watching over us below.

The star atop the Christmas tree
Is the one who made it all.
The one who unwraps presents
And gives that final call.

But some are unwrapped way too soon
Their paper ripped and torn.
They leave behind an empty box
While other presents morn.

The presents beg the star above
To fill the box that was unwrapped.
The star reminds the presents....
"The ornaments can not come back."

"Just look above into the tree
And see their brilliant shine.
No more will they be broken.
You'll see them when it's time."

The presents somehow understand....
The ornaments are finally home.
They've earned their place upon the tree.
In the empty box they don't belong.

If not for Christmas ornaments,
If not for the star above.
The presents would have nowhere
To feel the ornaments love.

So we'll remain beneath the tree
Until we're unwrapped by the star.
And leave behind our empty box
To go where our ornaments are.

So when you see a Christmas tree.
Think of all it represents.
Heaven, Angels, God above
And those who wait beneath the branch.

The Christmas tree is heaven
And the presents are those below
And the ornaments are our angels
And the star is the one who knows.

2006 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










"Tears are often the telescope
by which men see far into heaven."

-- Henry Ward Beecher










A WALK ON CHRISTMAS DAY

I took a walk on Christmas day
In the cool crisp winter air.
The trees bowed down before me
And they whispered in my ear.

"Walk lightly on the pathway.
Tip-toe quietly as you go.
Remember all the days gone by
Of the life you used to know."

Along the path were Christmas trees
And stars and angel wings,
Toys for little children
But no children could be seen.

Bright red bows and Christmas wreaths
And flowers all around,
Big brass horns and jingle bells
Although they made no sound.

Manger scenes and ornaments
And little twinkle lights,
Santa Clause and reindeer,
That didn't come last night.

Decorations everywhere,
It was Christmas at this place.
All was well until I felt
A teardrop on my face.

I walked lightly on the pathway.
I tip-toed quietly as I prayed.
Then I looked down and saw it...
His name upon his grave.

"It's Christmas", whispered all the trees
To the graveyard names below.
And I remembered days gone by
Of the life I used to know.

© 2007 - Christine Ross
~ In memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Published
Winter 2009, Volume 24 No. 4
LIVING WITH LOSS magazine
Bereavement Publications, Inc.










"I love walking in the rain,
'cause then no-one knows I'm crying."

~UNKNOWN










ALONE AT THE WINDOW

She stood alone at the window
Just staring out through the glass.
It was early Christmas morning.
She waiting for time to pass.

The house was quite and lonely.
Everyone else was sound to sleep.
I wondered what she was thinking
As her sad eyes began to weep.

A faint light in the distance
Shone down on the window pane
Casting a soft reflection of her
In the room where I quietly remained.

I stood back in the darkness
Hiding as I was looking on
Wanting to reach out and hold her
To let her know she wasn't alone.

She must have sensed that I was there
Because she slowly turned around.
But just as she did I stepped aside
Not making the slightest sound.

She whispered my name into the night
So I whispered into her ear.....
"Mom, I'm right here by your side,
Your angel is always near."

2007 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










TAKE AWAY

Instead of Christmas gifts for me
Come take some things away.
There's so much here that I don't want
So please don't give... just take.

Take away my knowledge
Of funerals, and urns, and graves.
And take away the guilt I have
For not being with him to save.

Take away these inward screams
That resonate his death.
And take away my begging
To give him back his breath.

Take away this heartache
That leaves me living in pain.
And take away all the years
After this sadness came.

Take away this loneliness
That stays throughout the year.
And take away this horror
That just won't disappear.

Take away that empty space
He no longer occupies.
And take away these tears of mine
That forever fill my eyes.

Take away this silence
That reminds me that he's gone.
And take away my wondering
How things could be so wrong.

Take away my questions why?.....
That cause never ending grief.
And take away my doubting
That has shattered my beliefs.

Take away most anything,
Especially his untimely death...
But PLEASE don't take my memories,
They're all that I have left.

2006 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










I heard the teardrop hit my pillow
before I even knew I was crying.

~Amborella Oltre










DEAR SANTA

What I want for Christmas
I think I know I'll never get.
But I'm gonna ask you anyway
Because I figure....What the Heck!!!!

Please bring back my son to me.
How about for Christmas Eve?
And let me know within my heart
That he'll never ever leave.

But if you can't for Christmas Eve
How about for Christmas Day?
Have him waiting by the tree
Early morn as I awake.

I know the gifts you usually bring
Are toys, and clothes, and such.
But please bring me this Christmas gift.
This gift I need so very much.

But wait.... before you do that
You will need to ask my son
If he wants to leave behind
His wonderful heavenly home.

He has found a special place
Where he never has to hurt.
The only thing about this place...
It's too far away from earth.

I know you've probably met him
And I'm sure he's doing great
There with all the angels.
There beyond that gate.

So on second thought I ask
Not to bring him home to me.
It's not fair to ease my pain
By taking his eternity.

But can't we go to where he is
And travel far beyond the moon?
I'll hitch a ride upon your sleigh.
I won't take up too much room.

We'll soar the stars and galaxies.
Then soar above the sky.
I wonder if they'll let me in
Even though I didn't die?

Oh gosh,.... another problem!
I can't yet be with my son
Even if you take me there
... my time here isn't done.

All the things I really want
I know I just can't have.
So I'll hold on to the memories
Of his face, his love, his laugh.

What I want for Christmas
Is what I know I'll never get.
But I thought I'd ask you anyway
Because I figured.... What the heck!!

2003 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










ALL THE GIFTS I CAN NEVER GIVE

I find myself wandering through the mall.
Christmas past I want to relive.
Tears fall from my eyes as I gaze upon.....
All the gifts I can never give.

Allured by the scent of his favorite cologne.
Beckoned by sounds from a music store.
I needlessly search for that card "To My Son",
Longing for Christmas with him just once more.

There are so many things I would give him...
The warmth of a hug and a smile.
I would give him that one last "I love you".
Then we'd sit and we'd talk for awhile.

I'd give him the strength to overcome death
That found haven in his room.
I would be there when he needed me most.
Perhaps he wouldn't leave so soon.

The gift of time for a long goodbye,
Something I desperately wish I could do.
I would tell him how deeply I miss him,
How his absence makes Christmas so blue.

But the music and hugs can't be given,
Nor time for talks or long good-byes.
For my son has gone, he'll never return.
He dwells with angels up in the sky.

So this year I'll wrap up my memories,
Those of a happier Christmas lived.
I'll place them beneath the Christmas tree with.....
All the gifts I can never give.

2001 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001










Tears are the silent language of grief.

Voltaire (1694-1778) French writer and historian

I'LL SEE YOU TONIGHT IN MY DREAMS

It was Christmas time 2001. Robin (my husband) and I would be having our first Christmas without Luke. Luke had died in April of that year at the age of 21 from Acute Broncho Pneumonia. Two months after Luke died his sister Emily moved far away to Seattle, Washington and Robin and I moved from Phoenix to Northern Arizona to our little weekend cabin in the mountains. Christmas 2001 was our first Christmas without Luke and our first Christmas without Emily. Our pain was so overwhelming.

Emily had called us and told us there was a movie by the name of THE MAJESTIC, and she said that we should go see it because the main character in the movie had the name of Luke. The movie takes place in 1951, and a blacklisted Hollywood writer gets into a car accident, loses his memory and settles down in a small town where he is mistaken for a long-lost son, named Luke.

The movie appeared in theaters on December 21, 2001, so on Christmas Eve 2001 Robin and I drove into town to see the movie THE MAJESTIC. It was such a lonely drive from our little cabin in the mountains. The only sound we could hear was the crunching of the snow as we drove down that dark and snow-covered road to the highway. We hardly even spoke on the way, but we both cried all the way to the theater. Once we arrived in town we saw all the pretty Christmas decorations that didn't look as pretty as they did the year before. I thought about how far away Emily was and how very, very far away Luke was. It was the same time the year before that we were all together, but it seemed like such a long time ago. I remembered the last wonderful Christmas we had all had together at the cabin. It was snowing so much that year that we had to pick Emily and Luke up on the highway with the snowmobile because the forest road to the cabin was impassable with a car. We had tied jingle bells on the sleigh that we pulled behind the snowmobile carrying all the presents that they brought. That last Christmas was such a wonderful Christmas with memories that would have to last a lifetime.

We finally arrived at the theater and it seemed so unusual being there without Emily and Luke. We found our seats and the movie began. During the movie the Luke character was walking down the street of a small town after having been in an auto accident and loosing his memory. The father of the son that had died was sitting in the diner and saw this guy walking down the street. The dad jumped up and ran out to greet the man and said to him..."Luke, is it really you? I thought you were dead. It is so good to have you back son."

As newly grieving parents of a son about the same age as the Luke in the movie, and to hear those words come from the father's mouth, was absolutely heartbreaking. Robin and I held each other's hands as the words reached our ears and as hopeful tears streamed down our faces. The first thing I thought was.... "Maybe our Luke isn't really dead either."

In the movie the town gave Luke a welcome home party. Hanging outside where the gathering was held was a huge banner that read "WELCOME HOME LUKE". Our hearts broke again as each of us were secretly thinking that maybe some day we could have a party like that for our Luke if he magically came back home.

There were other things in the movie that we felt were signs from Luke. One of the characters in the movie died from pneumonia, just as our Luke had died. Also there was someone in the move named Emily. At one time in the movie someone was reading a letter from the Luke character and the entire screen filled with this closing in the letter.... "I love you. Luke." We both gasp as it took our breath away.

The entire movie was pretty amazing for us and we just knew that it was Luke's way of letting us know that we were not alone on Christmas Eve. When the movie ended we both just sat there watching all the credits roll, amazed at what we had just experienced as the rest of the people in the theater slowly left their seats. Then after a while the screen went black. By this time we were the only ones left in theater and we were both crying tears of sadness and tears of happiness because Luke had sent us so many signs.

We stood up to leave the theater and music started playing on the speakers just as it always does when a movie is over and the theater is empty. But this music stopped us in our tracks. It was a Christmas song by Elvis Presley that we had never heard before.....


It won't seem like Christmas without you, for too many miles are between, But if I get the one thing I'm wishing for, I'll see you tonight in my dreams.

Seems a long time since we've been together. It was just about this time of year. Looks like its gonna be snowy weather. How I wish that you could be here.

In the distance I hear sleigh bells ringing. The holly is so pretty this year. And the carols that somebody's singing, reminds me of our Christmas last year.

It won't seem like Christmas without you, for too many miles are between, But if I get the one thing I'm wishing for, I'll see you tonight in my dreams.


... We just could not believe what had just happened! It was amazing to us that this movie with so many signs in it from Luke could be followed by a song that was EXACTLY how we were feeling that night. Oh how we wanted to see Luke in our dreams. Oh how we wished he could be with us.

On our drive back that night the silence exploded with our excitement about what had just happened. Happy tears replaced our sad tears as we talked and laughed on the long drive home reliving all the signs we had just received and remembering our wonderful Christmas the year before. We knew without a doubt that our Luke had made sure our first Christmas without him was not as lonely as we had anticipated. As we arrived at the cabin and went to bed, there was one thing we were wishing for..... To see Luke that night in our dreams.

2015 Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001














IT WON'T SEEM LIKE CHRISTMAS WITHOUT YOU

It won't seem like Christmas without you,
For too many miles are between,
But if I get the one thing I'm wishing for,
I'll see you tonight in my dreams.

Seems a long time since we've been together.
It was just about this time of year.
Looks like its gonna be snowy weather.
How I wish that you could be here.

It won't seem like Christmas without you,
For too many miles are between,
But if I get the one thing I'm wishing for,
I'll see you tonight in my dreams.

In the distance I hear sleigh bells ringing.
The holly is so pretty this year.
And the carols that somebody's singing,
Reminds me of our Christmas last year.

It won't seem like Christmas without you,
For too many miles are between,
But if I get the one thing I'm wishing for.
I'll see you tonight in my dreams.
I'll see you tonight in my dreams.

~ AS PERFORMED BY: ELVIS PRESLEY
~ WORDS AND MUSIC BY: J.A. BALTHROP



THE BRIGHT BLUE SKIES OF CHRISTMAS

One of the gifts we gave Luke for his very last Christmas was a dark gray bath robe. I vividly remember as he opened it he got a big smile on his face, and as he stood up and put it on over his clothes he said..."Oh man... this is warm." He absolutely loved that robe. Some of my fondest memories are of him walking across the living room in the early morning wearing that robe as he yawned and stretched just before sitting at the kitchen bar talking with me while I made him an omelet or French toast.

One day, just before our first Christmas without Luke I was cleaning around Luke's case that contained all of his special things and where his urn rested on top. His Christmas robe that he loved so much was solemnly hanging there on the hook, where it had hung since his death that April. I put my hands around that robe and clenched it tight as I brought it to my face to take in Luke's scent. But the only aroma I inhaled was the musty smell of dust. His scent had vanished just as his body had vanished 8 months earlier.

As I stood there my mind overflowed with thoughts of life and thoughts of death. I thought about how I had reach into the pockets of this abandoned robe many times hoping to find some long-lost treasure and being disappointed that nothing was ever found except the emptiness within those pockets and the emptiness within my heart. But just for old time's sake I reached in just once more and much to my surprise, there was something in one of the pockets! My heart skipped a beat with anticipation of finding a treasure that I had maybe, somehow overlooked all those other times in the past eight months. I clinched my hand around it and slowly pulled that long-awaited item from that robe pocket. My heart was thumping hard, I had a lump in my throat, I could feel tears at the edge of my eyelids waiting to spill forth, and I was on the verge of gasping for air. I slowly opened my clenched hand and there it was, something that I had not expected to find ................... a dead moth! I fell to the floor as the tears spilled over the edge of my eyelids to my face. Then a disturbing thought entered my mind......"My Luke has been gone long enough for an insect to take up residence and die in his deserted robe pocket." The scene that followed is one that is probably very familiar to any grieving parent. I cursed the moth, I cursed death, I cursed life, and I cursed the pain. As I laid there on the floor crying and screaming, my mind filled with the awful memories of that horrible day that my only son died.

After some time had passed I felt a warmth on my face. I looked up and it was the light coming through the window, shining on me. I pulled myself from the floor and walked to the window. I looked out through the frigid glass at the snow and the bright blue sky and the all beauty that surrounded me as I encountered the warmth of that Heavenly light. With tears streaming down my face I felt as if I were peering directly into Heaven. There I was, trapped alone in my new life on the side of the glass filled with pain and sorrow and lonliness. But I soon realized that just beyond the glass was another life awaiting me with freedom, and beauty, and hope, and happiness. I knew in time I would be in that wonderful place where my son was. My thoughts drifted from the horror of his death to the beauty of his Heaven. As I stood there engulfed in my reality, I heard a fluttering noise between the curtain and the window. I looked and there it was, a moth looking for its freedom, trying to get to the other side of that glass. I knew there were certain types of moths that could survive the cold of Winter, but I could not recall ever seeing one. I clutched the moth in my hands and walked out to the front porch as I felt the moth's wings flapping against my palms. I stood on the edge of the steps of the cabin and opened my gently clutched hands and released this moth to the freedom that it had earned. I watched it fly away and soon could no longer see it, just as I could no longer see Luke. But I knew, at that very moment, my son had also found freedom and beauty and another life that he too had earned..... somewhere in the bright blue skies of Christmas.

2014 Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001








IN MEMORY OF
Adrienne Leigh Ingram
28
June 25, 1979 - December 2, 2007
Respiratory failure cased by mitochondrial disease


IN MEMORY OF
Alexander Zachary Matthew Saladino
4 1/2
04/20/1996 - 12/31/2000
Medical Malpractice
SUBMITTED BY
Sue Saladino, Alex' Mom

The Christmas Stocking

There is an empty stocking,
Hanging on my fireplace.
And it brings an empty feeling,
That time cannot erase.

No candy in this stocking,
No presents 'neath the tree.
No more gifts he made at school,
Especially for me.

Empty chair at the table,
In his room, an empty bed.
No more lists to Santa Claus,
Or stories to be read.

Decorations on a grave,
A pretty Christmas wreath.
Carefully brushing snow away,
From the headstone underneath.

Not long ago things weren't like this,
This season held such joy.
Then tragedy stepped in and took,
My precious little boy.

I hide my feelings from my friends,
But, I cannot disguise,
There's nothing I would rather see,
Than Christmas through my child's eyes.

Sue Saladino 12/7/2002
~ in memory of Alex


IN MEMORY OF
Brent Anthony Legault
23
8/5/82 - 12/4/2005


IN MEMORY OF
Craig Nolan Watson
21
DOB 3/3/84 DOD 12/1/05
IED


IN MEMORY OF
Christian Victoria (Chrissie) Carrigan
15 yrs. 22 days
11-14-1986 to 12-06-2001
suicide


IN MEMORY OF
Damon Antonio Smith
23
April 23, 1982 - December 22, 2005
Self inflicted gun shot to the best part of him, his heart.


IN MEMORY OF
Daniel Joseph Quinn
21 years old
1\1\87 - 12\16\08


IN MEMORY OF
Daniel "Danny" James Stewart
29
December 23, 1979 - July 20, 2009
Accidental Drug Overdose
SUBMITTED BY
Sue Kromer

DEDICATION TO DANNY ON HIS DECEMBER BIRTHDAY

In the wee hours of the morning of December 23, 1979, I quickly announced to your dad that my contractions were very rapid, and said that we needed to get to the hospital soon. I told your dad that there was no time for coffee and donuts after his request to stop at 7-11.

We got to the hospital in 15 minutes, and I was wheeled in to the maternity section of the hospital rapidly.

I was put on a gurney, and went into the labor room. Your dad turned on a skit on TV of Saturday Night Live, and I was holding a picture of Jesus, praying as my contractions became very strong.

The nurse rushed in the room and checked me, and told us that you were well on your way !!!! Before I knew it seconds flew by and 1, 2, 3 you almost flew out !!!!

The nurse said "You have a beautiful baby boy," and I was so excited and was in awe of your first breath and cry. My first words were "Praise the Lord." " Praise the Lord !" You weighed in at 8 lbs, 2 oz. and you were 21 inches long.

I held you and immediately nursed you.

I'll never forget that magical moment.

Danny's mom,

Sue


IN MEMORY OF
Danny Sherrill Jr
age 25
August 9, 1976 - December 31, 2001
Auto Accident


IN MEMORY OF
Denise Marie McCormick
40 years
December 7, 1963 - February 28, 2004
Murder


IN MEMORY OF
Denise Rosaleen Vaughan
6 -1/2
July 14/1978-Dec.28/1984
Brain tumor/cancer
SUBMITTED BY
Mommy Rosaleen Vaughan

I Am With You
I am the many winds that blow.
I am the sun that shines so bright
On your face in the morning light.
I am the coolness of the winter's breeze
As it passes gently through the tree's.
I am the sparkle in the sky above....
Those stars are filled with all my love.
So, as you go about your day.....remember....
I am all around you, every step of the way.

Author
Rosaleen Bellamy (Vaughan)
December 20, 2008.


IN MEMORY OF
DENNIS MURPHY, JR
28 YEARS OLD
2/16/81 - 12/26/09
AUTO ACCIDENT


IN MEMORY OF
DEREK CHRISTIAAN WENTZ
36
12-4-72 to 5-21-09
GSWC


IN MEMORY OF
ELIZABETH LUTO
27 years, 10 months
9 December 1973 - 25 October 2001
pulmonary embolism 3 weeks after successful open heart surgery


IN MEMORY OF MEMORY OF
Javon Kevin Watkins
23
12-3-88 08-13-2012
Pneumonia, Fatty Liver, Obesity, Autism


IN MEMORY OF
Jeffrey Michael Felix
27 years
10-03-77 to 12-30-04
Malignant Melanoma


IN MEMORY OF
Jeremy Hughes
26
12/2/80 - 12/27/06


IN MEMORY OF
Gerald Salvatore Giles (Jerry)
35 years
December 5, 1968 - December 3, 2004
heart attack


IN MEMORY OF
John Joseph Gabriel, Jr.
32 years old
June 6, 1979 - December 12, 2011


IN MEMORY OF
Kenneth Michael Naturale
25 yrs
10/10/80 - 12/16/05


IN MEMORY OF
Kristi Lee Davis
24
12/14/84-11/25/2009
Suicide


IN MEMORY OF
Laurie Michelle Baer
16
10-31-76 / 12-4-92
congenital heart defect
SUBMITTED BY
Shirley, Lauries Mommy

The happiest day of my life was when the nurse brought her into my room after she was born. I couldn't believe I had such a beautiful baby girl, something I had always wanted since I was a very little girl, someone to be with me always, to love and love me. Then the saddest day at six weeks when we were told of her heart defect. Then happy again in June of 1990 when we were told she could be helped. Then ecstatic on December 3, 1992 when we were told that her heart wasn't as bad as we had always been told, that they could not only help her, but make it function like mine or yours. Then life ended the next day when she died.


IN MEMORY OF
Lindsay Ann Brashier
18
Dec. 19, 1977 - Nov. 10, 1996


IN MEMORY OF
Marisa Lynn Ward
25
2/17/83 - 12/13/08
Sudden cardiac arrest


IN MEMORY OF
Mindy Leigh Clark
22 years
December 19, 1979 - May 10, 2002
Illness/weak immune system


IN MEMORY OF
Oran Daniel Jones
19
12/02/1988 to 05/14/2008


IN MEMORY OF
Patti Rawls
54
3/2/1956 - 12/10/2010
Melanoma Cancer


IN MEMORY OF
Paul John LaFaver
27 yrs.
12/11/79 - 9/3/2007
carbon monoxide poisoning


IN MEMORY OF
Rob Northrop aka RadRob
26 years young
October 28, 1971 - December 23,1997
Leukemia


IN MEMORY OF
Roseann Martinez
36


IN MEMORY OF
Stephen Matthew Wilson
20
June 2 1981 - Dec 11 2001
auto accident


IN MEMORY OF
TIMOTHY STRATTON
29
FEBRUARY 6, 1979 / DECEMBER 7, 2008
pancreatitis
SUBMITTED BY
MELISSA STRATTON

You are near me, even if I don't see you. You are with me, even if you are far away. You are in my heart, in my thoughts, in my life ALWAYS!

We love you and miss you terribly, Tim.


IN MEMORY OF
Timothy Charles Smith Jr. (TJ)
20
Birth 7/21/92 - Death 12/11/ 2012


IN MEMORY OF
Trenton "Trent" Alan Dove
31
07-16-1977 / 12-23-2008
snowmobile accident


IN MEMORY OF
Troy Alan Mitzlaff
37
01/27/1971 - 12/14/2008
Suicide










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PAGE 01 ~ POETRY, STORIES, QUOTES, PAINTINGS, AND MORE



PAGE 02 ~ OUR CHILDREN'S NAMES ~ BABIES AND CHILDREN



PAGE 03 ~ OUR CHILDREN'S NAMES ~ TEENAGERS



PAGE 04 ~ OUR CHILDREN'S NAMES ~ TWENTIES



PAGE 05 ~ OUR CHILDREN'S NAMES ~ THIRTY AND OLDER









"VISIT WITH LUKE"

Last Entry in Luke's Journal:

"When there is love in my heart and a smile on my face,
I need nothing else." ~ Luke Ross

"MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU"

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