CHRISTMAS TEARDROP MEMORIALS

CHRISTMAS TEARS

.....(to the tune of Silver Bells)

Little Angel, busy angels
Dressed in heavenly style
In the air there's
A feeling of sadness.

Children dying,
Parents crying,
Trying hard just to smile,
And at every child's headstone you'll hear:

Christmas tears, Christmas tears
It's Christmas time and we're lonely.
Parents dream, hear them scream:
Please come back home Christmas day.

Angel halos, pretty halos
Blink a bright red and green
As the parents rush home
To their memories.

Hear the moms cry
See the dads try
Not to make a big scene
And above all the bustle you'll hear:

Christmas tears, Christmas tears
It's Christmas time and we're lonely
Parents dream, hear them scream:
Please come back home Christmas day.

© 2006 - Christine Ross

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"DANNY" DANIEL SCOTT FORRESTER 30 Years

"LUKE" LUCAS CHRISTOPHER ROSS 21 years

"BEAU" JASON BEAU MORGAN 23 Years

AVRA MARIE JOHNSON RAMSAY 21 Years

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"BRAD" BRADLEY LOUIS CORDIAL 17 years

BRODY JASON MOUCH 2 hours

JACOB KENNETH DAVIS 13 years

CADE DAWSON WRIGHT 3 years

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RICKY AARON PHILLIPS 22 years

RAYLENE ALICIA GUTIERREZ 23 years

JAYDEN EARL ELLEFSON 1 year 1 month

"LUKE" LUCAS JAMES FLOREN 21 years

4

RICKY JAMES DAVIS, JR. 24 years

"JOSH" JOSHUA SAMUEL HUGHES 21 years

"JOEY" JOSEPH DAVID SORENSON 21 years

MICHAEL JOHN SHULTZ 8 months

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JOEY MARSHALL WHITEMAN 21 years

ARLYN MARIA BEAL 18 Years

DEREK SEAN DYSON 19 years

STEPHEN MATTHEW WILSON 20 1/2 years

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JUSTIN PIERCE 12 years

"BECKY JO" REBECCA JO SESTER 15 years

"ALEX" ALEXANDER ZACHARY MATTHEW SALADINO 4 years

"ANGIE" ANGELA RENEE KRESGE 21 Years

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HANNAH ISABELLA SNYDER 3 1/2 years

GILLES MICHAEL MOREAU 16 years

"JOEY" JOSEPH ZACHARY TAYLOR 4 years

JASON PAUL HILTON 24 years

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MATTHEW JOHN BROWN 21 years

SARAH JEAN DAVIDSON 3 years 11 months

"TAB" TABATHA LEANN WOOTEN 20 years

CHRISTOPHER RONALD FALLER 7 years

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JUSTIN MICHAEL ROBERTSON 17 years

JACE ALEXANDER GIKAS 6 months

ETHAN MICHAEL LYNN KILPATRICK 4 1/2 years

"JOSH" JOSHUA PAUL COPE 21 years

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TYLER BILLY TSCHESCHLOG 14 years

SKYLAR EDWARD AARVAG 10 months

GALEN WAYNE MASTERSON 11 years

CAROL RAE SMART 18 years

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"ALEX" ALEXANDER CHARLES GILL 2 months

CANDICE KEIM 19 years

DEREK GEIBE 20 years

JASON SCOTT GRIFFITH 24 years

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"BUTCH" WILLIAM EDWARD HERBERT 21 years

"DONNIE" DONALD BERNARD HERBERT 9 years

"KATH" KATHRYN-MARY IRENE HERBERT 11 years

CORRINA JENNELL PARSLOW 19 years

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ALLEN D. BORING, Jr. 32 years

CHRISTINE MARIE KLEIN 27 years

KANDA MICHELLE JACOBS 30 years

DANIEL EDWARD RICKETTS II 30 years

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KEVIN JAMES BOGERT 31 years

JASON LEE HAFFORD 22 years

DONALD WARREN BARKER 33 years

GARETT WAYNE CLARKSON 27 years

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JOSHUA DAVID GODDARD 27 years

KAYLA MARIE CHRISTIAN 16 years

BRETT ANTHONY GINDER 18 years

DAVID L. RATCLIFFE III (DIII) 26 years

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LAUREN RENEE BOLLES 16 years

AMANDA ROSE WAINSCOTT 20 years

JOSHUA RICHARD LEE VARGAS 29 years

"MIKEY" MICHAEL RAY CAGLE,JR. 17 years

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JACOB R. DURAN (JUNIOR) 19 years

SARAH LISA GUERRERO 17 years

BRANDON WILLIAMS TOMS 17 years

TONYA LYNN HORTON 18 years

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"ALLEN" PETER ALLEN ASENCIO, JR. 36 years

"JOSH" MCCOY 25 years

ERIC SUTTON SKINNER 19 years

JOHN TAYLOR LOMON 17 years

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STEPHANIE DAWN BARRAGY

"RONNIE" RONALD STEVE CHAVERS 24 years

MAKAYLA ALEXIS CHAVERS 5 months

TAMI MARIE WOLFE 20 years

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STEVEN VINCENT MIRELES 18 years

AARON MATTHEW ORITZ 19 years

STEVEN CLANCY 27 years

BRANDON JAMES QUINN-GOMEZ 11 months, 9 days

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"JOSH" JOSHUA LEE FRITZ 31 years

JEANINE TAMARA JOHNSON 23 years

TRACY LEE COX 30 years

"ROBBIE" ROBERT HAMPTON SMITH 16 years

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"MACK" KENNETH MACK HILLERY CREAMER 17 years

JESSICA M. AMARAL 15 years

ORAN DANIEL JONES 19 years

GARRETT DUSTIN FRAZEE 24 years

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ROBERT JAMES DELOSH 24 years

JACKY MICHAEL DELOSH 1 hour

ASHLEY NIAMH MCCAULEY 13 years

MICHAEL SMICH 33years

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JASON LEE WEST 19 years

JESSICA LOUISE WEST 17 years

MACKENZIE NICOLE WEST 13 years

JOSHUA DAVID UNDERWOOD 24 years

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"JOEY" JOSEPH CHRETIEN JR. 25 years

"BOBBIE" ROBERT J. MCCARTHY IV 19 years

CARL TAYLOR 1 year 6 days

"DEBBIE" DEBORAH JEAN FREITAS DAUGHRATY 42 years

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PRISCILLA ANN FREITAS 1 year 4 days

DANIEL VINCENT STAIB 23 years

GARRETT DANIEL STAIB 1 hour

CASSANDRA LEIGH BAKER 23 years

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JUSTIN MICHAEL EVANS 17 years

CRAIG BALDRIDGE 31 years

RYAN ALLEN DAUGHERTY 30 years

"JOSH" JOSHUA ENVIL 26 years

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CORWIN JAMES FARMER 19 years

KEITH WARREN PETERSON 21 years

CORY GENE PILAT 21 years

AIMEE LYNN PLUMMER 20 years

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MATTHEW TYLER HUDSON 18 years

BRIAN JOSEPH PARKER 27 years

TIMOTHY PATRICK PARKER 25 years

JEANINE TAMARA JOHNSON 23 years

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"DAMO" DAMIAN REID CARVER 19 years

NATHAN LYNN FORD 18 years

ROSS HUNTER WHITE 19 years

JASON PAUL HARRILL 22 years

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WENDY NICOLE DICKENS MCCAMMON 21 years

PETER RAYMOND ELLWOOD 33 years

TONY TREVHERON ELLWOOD 37 years

AARON SHOULDERS 18 years

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SHERRIE REANNA MORELAND 15 years

ALYSSA ESTEVES

TOMMY M. CHILDRESS 18 years

AMY LYNN ALSOFROM 25 years

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RYAN MICHAEL HOOK 21 years

ANTHONY JAMES-JUSTIN FRIEND 27 years

"OLYA" OLESYA VITALIEVNA NOVIKOVA 22 months

"CLINT" CLINTON TERRY MILAM 10 years

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"BRAD" BRADLEY ALAN O'MARTIN 27 Years

SETH NILES CROMER 5 years

BUDDY SEGLER 17 years

CHAD DAMON KITCHEN 25 years

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BRANDON TYLER BESHADA 25 years

COREY CHRISTOPHER JAMES 20 years

MICHELLE MARIE JAMES 22 years

CORLISE DAWN LEHMANN 27 years

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CRAIG BRIAN COUFAL 16 years

JAMES AARON GUREVICH 17 years

DANIELLE MARIE PLOURDE 11 years

JODY LAWRENCE GONYOU 30 years

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DARYL ALAN JOHNSON 18 years

DENISE MARIE MCCORMICK 40 years

ECOCENCIO KINTIA GRAVES 7 years

FAITH ANN MCINTIRE 4 1/2 months

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JOSHUA SCRUGGS

GEOFFREY PHILIP JAMES EDWARDS 18 years

HAYDEN ALAN ADAMS 37 days

"JESSII" JESSICA KASSANDRA HAFFER 14 years

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HEATHER LYNNE WILLIAMSON 22 years

JAMIE MARILYN VITELLO

CRYSTAL YVONNE THOMPSON 28 years

MISTY (ANGEL) TRANTHAM 15 years

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JEREMY JEFFERSON

TATYANA LORIANN CIRKSENA 14 months

JOHN WILLIAM JONES 33 years

"MIKEY" MICHAEL JOHN VINYARD 5 years, 7 months

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JORDAN THOMPSON

"KRISS" KRISSTOFFER JEFFERSON 20 years

STEPHEN JARED EBANKS 17 years

KRISTA KATHLEEN KELLY 28 years

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LISA FAYE BESSIRE

MEGAN MARIE BAKER 21 years

BRENDA NAYAME 31 years

MICHELE JOY WARGO 29 years

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JOHN ROBERT SPRINGER 40 years

MPUNDU HILDA KASUBA 15 years

"ANNIE" ANNE MARIE BERND 24 years

MICHAEL DONNELLY BUTKA 16 years

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PAUL JOHN LAFAVER 27 years

"WAYNE" BRADFORD WAYNE WELLS, JR. 42 years

AMANDA CHRISTINE WARNOCK 13 years

RODNEY ALLEN NISBET 38 years

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ANTHONY PAUL WODZINSKI 15 years

SHAWNEE MARIE (STORMER) KOCH 40 years

"TONY" ANTHONY RYAN MCLEMORE 31 years

JEREMY DILLON WILLIAMS 18 years

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ALEXANDRA VICTORIA RENTFRO 8 years

WESLEY GOODNER

AMBER MARIE BARTALINO 20 years

CALEB JOSEPH HIEATT 15 years

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JAVARUS MCCORMICK 17 years

"GRANT" JERRY GRANT LEWIS 26 years

HAYES KENT 16 years

JERRY JOHNSON 22 years

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EMMA RENAUD 9 months

LAURA ANN KIMBLE 33 years

ANGIE ANN DUHON 31 years

RADOMIR RADE CIRIC 33 years

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MICHAEL J. SMICH 33 years

SISSY LYNNE WARRINER 9 years

MICHAEL RAY SHELLY 35 years

SAMUEL SCOTT GEER 21 years

50

, AMANDA WORLEY 16 years

MIRANDA YOUNG 21 years

DAVID MILLER 21 years

NATHAN WILLIAM MANZ 17 years

51

CHRISTINE MARIE KLEIN 33 years

ANDREA ADRIAN-WOLFE 27 years

BRYAN DANIEL WOLFE 27 1/2 years

MICHAEL D. CARICO II 39 years

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ROBERT "BOB" WILLIAMS 19 years

"TRISSIE" THERESA DAWN FETTER 37 years

AMANDA "MANDY" NICOLE WALKER 22 years

DEBORAH SARAH POLLOCK 19 years

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ADAM FIOCK 26 years

CHRISTOPHER B. HOSLER 23 years

AARON DWAYNE BREWER 26 years

SGT. PETER MAGINNIS NYPD 37 years

54

IAN ARTHUR ATCHINSON 12 years

DANNY TAGGART 12 years

TAMATHA "TAMI" JOLYNNE VARNER WATSON 31 years

JOHN (JACK) POLAND 20 years

55

MATTHEW PAUL TRAVIS COLE 22 years

VERNON EUGENE LIPSEY 18 years

JAMIE LEE BAKER 18 years

RANDY SANTMANN 22 years

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REBECCA LYNN FITZER-GROVES 34 years

DUSTIN LEE FITZER 13 years

ANTHONY PARROTT 21 years

TINA MARIE MCQUAIG 27 years

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BRENDAN MICHAEL KIZER 17 years

LYNELLE A. CONNOR 26 years

ROBERT LOUIS (BOBBY) MONTGOMERY 27 years

CHRISTOPHER ALLEN MORELL 23 months

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LONNIE LEE WEBB 41 years

JASON CHRISTOPHER DUNN 22 years

BRANDON SGAGGERO 29 years

THOMAS M. 34 years

59

JUSTIN OWEN DANIELS VERDIEL 5 years

JASON RAMIREZ 18 years

DANIEL RAMIREZ 17 years

LISA FERNANDEZ 17 years

60

BILLY KAYSER 16 years

THOMAS KAYSER Born Sleeping

"JIM" JAMES H. TAYLOR, II 18 years

RONALD SHANE SHORT 22 years

61

JASON LEE WILLIAMS 20 years

JOSHUA LINK DOOLEY 17 years

JOSEPH HALE SHEPHERD 18 years

JEFFERY ALLEN OLA 35 years

62

AARON HEATH HARVEY 19 years

KARLA SUE WHITE LALONDE 33 years

STEVEN WAYNE COTHRAN 38 years

PAUL DWAIN COTHRAN 29 years

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ASHLEY RUSSELL JESSOP 30 years

"KATIE" KATHRYN JEAN FISHER 18 years

"NICK" NICHOLAS DAVID LUCKE 24 years

MATTHEW HUSTWICK 23 years

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"ANT" ANTHONY MICHAEL COLA 16 years

CERRIDWYN "KERRY" MAIRE URSULA BRIGID ROSEANNE LUJAN 19 years

CODY TYLER CLIFTON 18 years

LEVI M. ZORN 27 years

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JESSUA KALEIOLANAKILA ROSAGA 3 1/2 years

BENJAMIN DAVID SHIPP 24 years

ADAM JAROD DELONG 18 1/2 years

GLENDA FAYE DUBOSE 43 years

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AARON HEATH HARVEY 19 years

STEVEN WAYNE COTHRAN 38 years

JAMES HERBERT KALLIES 24 yrs, 11 mo, 2 d

HEATHER PERKINS TREW 19 years

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JAMIE-LEIGH BRITT 18 years

JONATHAN STEVEN WITTY 16 years

AARON C. KURTZ 31 years

TRAVIS REX BARRENTINE 18 years

68

MARK ALAN LEE 22 years

MICHAEL DOUGLAS PICKLES 10 years

GRANT LEWIS 26 years

JOEY SCARPA 23 years

69

JESSIE ROBERT RICHARDSON 24 years

JAMIE LEE RICHARDSON 20 years

LISA HOLDGRAFER 30 years

ROB L. "RADROB" NORTHROP, JR. 26 years

70

LLOYD FRANKLIN ROBERTS (DRACUS) 40 years

JAMES GARY RODGERS 24 years

KARI ANN RAMSEY 3 mo, 2 wks

HEIDI ALLYN REED 21 years

71

"ANDY" ANDREW GREGORY MISTLER 17 years

JOSHUA SCOTT JOHNSON 21 years

MAXX WILLIAM ALBURY 4.5 months

JEREMY SCOTT HILL 34 years

72

BOBBY O'BREIN LACKEY 38 years

"JAKKIE" JACQUES OELOFSE 25 years

TINA MARIE MCQUAIG 27 years

LAURA JANE WHITE 15 years

73

BRYAN JAY REID 15 years

JAMES IRVIN "J.D." SCROGGINS 23 years

LEE HENRY AGUILERA 25 years

DAVID KISER 24 years

74

CHAD ERIC DAY 30 years

ANTHONY MICHAEL SYBERT-SMITH 4 wks, 4 days

ANGEL CRYSTAL PLANA 13 years

TERRY CHRISTOPHER REED DAVIS 22 years

75

JERRY "TREY" WAYNE POUPART, III 14 YEARS

"TIMI" JEANA TIMITHEA ELISON ALLEN 9 years

"WHITNEY" PHILLIP WHITNEY ALLEN 18 years

CRYSTAL YVONNE THOMPSON 28 years

76

RICKEY FRANKLIN TACKETT, II Newborn

JEREMY TODD TACKETT 26 years

JUSTIN LUKE SCANCARELLO 21 years

BRIAN WALTER BRUMBAUGH 25 years

77

DUSTIN MARSHALL RAWLS 25 years

CYNTHIA M.

CRAIG L.

TRISTAN W. 19 years

78

CYNTHIA SHELTON 55 years

BRENDA STEVENS 50 years

MATTHEW DOUCETTE 17 years

BOBBY JOHN SHELTON 25 years

79

TRAVIS BO T. 20 years

LYNDSEY P. 22 years

SHAWN PRESTON REGO 15 years

TAMMY RENEE SMITH 21 years

80

JEFFERY ALLEN OLA 35 years

MARO THOMAS ESTABROOK 5 1/2 weeks

KAREN AMELIA MARY ESTABROOK 18 days

STEVEN EDWARD WEST 21 years

81

CLYDE LEON JONAS, JR. 29 years

RICHARD WAYNE JONAS 28 years

JENNIFER GRACE MUDGE 49 years

JEFFREY THOMAS MUDGE 27 years

82

AARON GOLDEN 22 years

KENZIE GOLDEN RODEN 25 years

LAURIE MICHELLE BAER 16 years

KENNETH ALLEN BEEVERS 18 years

83

JOSHUA EUGENE HEDGLIN 18 1/2 years

LCPL. JESSE RYAN TRACEY 22 years

CHRISTIAN VICTORIA (CHRISSIE) CARRIGAN 15 years

ERIN JOANNE MURPHY

84

GREGORY SCOTT ROACH 8 years

LUKE DANIEL ROACH 6 hours

CHAD PHILLIP PENDERGRASS 13 years

ROMELO ANTONIO RODRIGUEZ Born Still

85

JOSEPH WILLIAM HEATH 25 years

MARJORIE MAE BOWEN 35 years

JOSEPH MICHAEL MEDINA 31 years

KYLE MICHAEL TINGEN 16 years

86

KENDALL GERALD MOSELEY 30 years

EVAN THROCKMORTON 21 years

MICHAEL (MIKEY) PAUL BURCHFIELD 9 years

TYLER WADE HEAD 9 years

87

TALMADGE DEWITT TULLIER 18 months

CHRISTOPHER PEREIDA 20 years

RANDY REED "PETE" HECOX 30 years

ANGELA DAWN SCHROEDER 28 years

88

JARED G. BIFULCO 19 years

JUSTIN HENRY "J.T." THIELBAR 17 years

RENEE L. MISCIK 38 years

CRAWFORD ALAN CARNAHAN 18 years

89

THOMAS P. FARRIS 23 years

JOHN CHARLES GREGORY, JR. 26 years

RAYMOND HOLLINGSWORTH 19 years

JESSE LYNCH 24 years

90

JONATHAN BRYAN CHASTAIN 20 years

JOANNA BETH CHASTAIN 19 years

KAITLYN LOUISE SCOTT 20 months

RYAN PATRICK RHODES 23 years

91

DARREN DUTTON 21 years

KEVIN TODD FELLER 27 years

PAUL EDWARD DALLIS 17 years

TAMMY LYNN LUCAS ALLEN 35 years

92

SHERRI LYNN POE 21 days

JOHNNY E. POE 15 years

KYLE A. POE 26 years

JOEY MOWER 24 years

93

NICHOLAS ANTHONY PICCOLO, III 25 years

KRISTEN ELIZABETH GOODMAN 21 years

PAMELA LYNNE REID 17 years

JOHNATHAN LEE STONE 16 years

94

ANDREW BRENT LASCHON 18 years

JESSICA LYN BRYL 23 years

CLINT TYLER REAGAN 20 years

CRYSTAL FERRIGNO 9 years

95

VENESSA GONZALEZ 23 years

AARON BENJAMIN KRAUT 6 years

FALLON O'TOOLE MCINTYRE 2 yrs, 3 m, 18 days

BENJAMIN E. SNODDY 34 years

96

JENNIFER (JENNI) JAIN 27 years

SCOT L. JAIN 34 years

DAVEY ALLISON DUNAVANT 9 years

KASSANDRA JEAN CARROLL 28 years

97

IAN DOUGLAS MARSHALL 3 months

KENNETH STUART MARSHALL 9 days

GERALD KEITH MARSHALL 1 day

AIRMAN 1ST CLASS SCOTT M. SCHROEDER 20 years

98

CHRISTOPHER RYAN FREUNDORFER 3 years

PAMELA LYNNE REID 17 years

JESSICA MARIE YOUNG 22 years

JOSHUA LEWIS DARNA 15 years

99

TODD BRANDON WEHUNT 27 years

ANNA Y. COLOM 12 years

"RONNIE" RONALD LEE VANWINKLE 19 years

DUSTIN JAMES ELLIS 16 years

100

BRIAN SCOTT DAVIS 20 years	ZACKERY JOHN TOMLINSON 6 years	STEVEN PATRICK MILLER 21 years	KEITH ARMAND "SLUGGER" WILSON 20 years

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I heard the teardrop hit my pillow
before I even knew I was crying.

~Amborella Oltre

ANGELS NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

'Twas the night before Christmas when all through the house
My emotions were stirring, no one to arouse.
The stockings were hung from the chimney with care.
One stocking seemed lonely... my child wasn't there.

I was sleepy and nestled all snug in my bed
While visions of heaven danced in my head.
I dreamt of heavenly gifts he'd unwrap,
As I settled my brains for a heavenly nap.

Since the day that he died my life had been shattered.
There was nothing much left that seemed really to matter.
I dosed off to sleep but awoke to a flash.
"Could this light be my child?" myself I did ask.

Then as I gazed out at the new fallen snow.
"What was that light?" I wanted to know!
When what to my wondering eyes should appear
But a beautiful angle with luminous hair.

This angel was happy so lively and quick.
I knew in a moment my child wasn't sick.
More rapid than eagles his angel friends came
And he softly and tenderly called them by name.

They all stood before me in the snow and the wind
As I heard in the night the sweet message they send.
They want us to know that they heard our sad call
And they're really okay, not to worry at all.

As prayers that are prayed to heaven on high,
When they meet with a teardrop, mount to the sky.
So up to the clouds the angles they flew.
With a message of love for me and for you.

And then in a twinkling, they returned with their love.
They were dancing and prancing right up above.
Then all the angels, they flew to the ground.
One entered of my home without making a sound.

He was dressed all in white from his head to his foot.
And his clothes were all glowing and he carried a book.
Great feathery wings he had on his back.
As he opened his book I sighed and I gasped.

His eyes how they twinkled his smile was so merry.
His cheeks were like roses but I was so weary.
Then he gave me the answers I needed to know.
His fluttering wings were as white as the snow.

As I stood there and watched him I felt a great peace
And a halo encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a sweet face and a wonderful grin
That beamed when he laughed from his ears to his chin.

His hair was so radiant and appeared to be silk.
I cried when I saw him in spite of myself.
The spark in his eyes and the glow 'round his head,
Soon gave me to know that he wasn't so dead.

He spoke not a word but went straight to his work
As he checked off my name in his book... under HURT.
He looked at me gently and smiled as time froze.
He gave me a hug and to the clouds he arose.

He joined his new friends and he gave a soft whistle
And away they all flew like a sudden dismissal.
But I heard him exclaim as he flew out of sight...
"Mom, we're visiting all grieving parents tonight."

© 2002 - Christine Ross
© Revised 2006

When you are sorrowful look again in your heart,
and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for
that which has been your delight.

~Kahlil Gibran

I WONDER IF

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

I wonder if you heard it?
Did you listen really well?
It's in every Christmas carol
And in every Christmas bell.

There is a sweet familiar voice.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to hear again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you smelled it?
Did you inhale really deep?
It's in every Christmas fragrance
And in every Christmas tree.

There is a sweet familiar scent.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to breathe again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you tasted it?
Did it linger on your lips?
It's in every Christmas candy
And in every Christmas sip.

There is a sweet familiar taste.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to kiss again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you felt it?
Did it brush you close enough?
It's in every Christmas teardrop
And in every Christmas hug.

There is a sweet familiar touch.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to hold again.
Just concentrate and close your eyes.

I wonder if you saw it?
Did you look at it tonight?
It's in every Christmas candle
And in every Christmas light.

There is a sweet familiar face.
It's one you'll recognize.
The one you've longed to see again.
Just concentrate... with opened eyes.

© 2007 - Christine Ross

Tears are the silent language of grief.

Voltaire (1694-1778) French writer and historian

WHERE IS CHRISTMAS

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Where is Christmas?
Where did it go?
Where is the music?
Where is the snow?

Where is Santa?
Where is the cheer?
Where is the laughter?
Why aren't you here?

© 2003 - Christine Ross

The tears fall,
they're so easy to wipe off onto my sleeve,
but how do I erase the stain from my heart?

~ Unknown

ANOTHER LONELY DECEMBER

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Another lonely December,
Waiting for Christmas to pass,
Staring out through the window,
At the cold beyond the glass.

Dreaming of the years gone by,
And things I love to remember,
Knowing this life will always bring,
Another lonely December.

© 2004 - Christine Ross

Let your tears come.
Let them water your soul.

~Eileen Mayhew

THE SILENCE OF CHRISTMAS MORNING

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

The silence of Christmas morning,
Echoes through my lonely soul.
No laughter or excitement,
Just the sound of growing old.

Growing old without my child,
No more light upon my face.
Oh how I miss Christmas morning,
In this abandoned... silent place.

I have memories of the laughter,
And the whispering joy within,
From noisy Christmas mornings,
But the memories have an end.

My child's life was quietly hushed,
Leaving us without any warning.
This one memory will always bring,
The silence of Christmas morning.

© 2004 - Christine Ross

Invisible tears are the hardest to wipe away.
Just let it out, my friend.

~Adabella Radici

ON THIS LONELY CHRISTMAS NIGHT

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

The rocking horse is put away.
The tricycle stands alone.
The little winter coats and hats
Have all become un-sewn.

The bicycle is in the shed.
The car is covered with a tarp.
The Christmas tree and ornaments
Are in the corner in the dark.

The games are in the closet.
The cell phone receives no calls.
The patchwork Christmas stocking
Hangs empty on the wall.

The guitar plays no music.
The new clothes are getting old.
The toys are all upon the shelf
With stories left untold.

The sled is covered up with snow.
The skis rest behind the door.
The gloves that used to warm those hands
Will warm those hands no more.

The candle's burning brightly.
The little tree has twinkle lights.
The urn rests there between them both
On this lonely Christmas night.

© 2007 - Christine Ross

What soap is for the body,
tears are for the soul.

~Jewish Proverb

CHRISTMAS EVE

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

It's Christmas Eve and I'm lonely
Remembering you tonight.
Precious memories make me smile
But this pain within I fight.

I wish I could play Santa Claus
Just one more time for fun.
And watch you open presents
But your life is over and done.

I know you are the one that died
But I also died... someway
And so did every Christmas Eve
And every special holiday.

We have no Christmas tree with lights
And we have no jingle bells.
We only have this loneliness,
Not dead... but a living hell.

I'll still wait for you tonight
To walk tall through that front door,
Bushing the snow off of your coat
And we'll have Christmas Eve once more.

© 2004 - Christine Ross

It is such a secret place,
the land of tears.

~Antoine de Saint-Exupery, The Little Prince

WE'RE ALL JUST CHRISTMAS PRESENTS

~ by Christine Ross in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

We're all just Christmas presents
Underneath the Christmas tree.
Waiting to be opened.
Waiting finally to be free.

The Christmas tree is heaven
Where unwrapped presents go.
The ornaments are angels
Watching over us below.

The star atop the Christmas tree
Is the one who made it all.
The one who unwraps presents
And gives that final call.

But some are unwrapped way too soon
Their paper ripped and torn.
They leave behind an empty box
While other presents morn.

The presents beg the star above
To fill the box that was unwrapped.
The star reminds the presents....
"The ornaments can not come back."

"Just look above into the tree
And see their brilliant shine.
No more will they be broken.
You'll see them when it's time."

The presents somehow understand....
The ornaments are finally home.
They've earned their place upon the tree.
In the empty box they don't belong.

If not for Christmas ornaments,
If not for the star above.
The presents would have nowhere
To feel the ornaments love.

So we'll remain beneath the tree
Until we're unwrapped by the star.
And leave behind our empty box
To go where our ornaments are.

So when you see a Christmas tree.
Think of all it represents.
Heaven, Angels, God above
And those who wait beneath the branch.

The Christmas tree is heaven
And the presents are those below
And the ornaments are our angels
And the star is the one who knows.

© 2006 - Christine Ross

"Tears are often the telescope
by which men see far into heaven."

-- Henry Ward Beecher

A WALK ON CHRISTMAS DAY

I took a walk on Christmas day
In the cool crisp winter air.
The trees bowed down before me
And they whispered in my ear.

"Walk lightly on the pathway.
Tip-toe quietly as you go.
Remember all the days gone by
Of the life you used to know"

Along the path were Christmas trees
And stars and angel wings,
Toys for little children
But no children could be seen.

Bright red bows and Christmas wreaths
And flowers all around,
Big brass horns and jingle bells
Although they made no sound.

Manger scenes and ornaments
And little twinkle lights,
Santa Clause and reindeer,
That didn't come last night.

Decorations everywhere,
It was Christmas at this place.
All was well until I felt
A teardrop on my face.

I walked lightly on the pathway.
I tip-toed quietly as I prayed.
Then I looked down and saw it...
My child's name upon the grave.

"It's Christmas", whispered all the trees
To the graveyard names below.
..And I remembered days gone by
Of the life I used to know.

© 2007 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Published in LIVING WITH LOSS magazine
Winter 2009, Volume 24 No. 4
Bereavement Publications, Inc.

"I love walking in the rain,
'cause then no-one knows I'm crying."

~UNKNOWN

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