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2015
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AT HIS PIANO

It was the year 1998 and Luke was 18 years old. He was living in a Phoenix apartment with his sister Emily. They were both in college. Emily was studying political science and Luke was studying music. Luke wanted a piano so bad. So he searched the ads and found an old early 1900's upright piano. (It looked just like one of those in an old west saloon.) Well, Luke bought the piano, but realized after he bought it that he needed to get it up the stairs to their second story apartment. So Luke called his guy friends and several of them came over and believe it or not they actually got that old piano up the stairs and into the apartment. (I am so glad that I wasn't there because I would have been so worried that someone would get hurt.) Luke found a perfect place for his piano in his bedroom. He positioned his piano so that when he played his back was to the door.

One day Robin (Luke's Dad) and I stopped by Emily and Luke's apartment for a visit. Emily opened the door and when she did we could hear piano music coming from Luke's bedroom. I motioned to Emily not to let Luke know we were there. I walked quietly to his bedroom door and there was Luke sitting at that old piano playing to his heart's content. I stood in the doorway for a while before entering and just watched him play while his hands gracefully embraced the keys, releasing the most beautiful sounds from his fingertips. I was always so amazed at Luke's musical talent. He could pick up any instrument and after tinkering with it for a little while he could play it.

College introduced Luke to classical piano music and he just loved to play it. His very favorite piece was Fur Elise. He played it with such grace and emotion. After Luke and his piano moved back home, I would lay on his bed in his room and just listen to him play. I would close my eyes and let his soothing music take me anywhere I wanted to go. While listening I would imagine myself perched at the top of a mountain looking into the sky as the musical notes drifted up to Heaven. When he played Fur Elise so many images came into view. Oh how I loved listening to him and oh how he loved playing.

Those magical, wonderful days ended a long time ago... almost 14 years ago. At Luke's service this beautiful music filled the air that I found difficult to breathe. I'll never forget that heart wrenching pain as Fur Elise played while photos of Luke's entire life scrolled across the screen. Probably most of those in attendance had no idea the deep meaning this music had for all of us

There is nothing in this whole wide world that can bring me comfort like the sound of Fur Elise. Somehow it makes what is left of this earthly life bearable. When I hear Fur Elise I no longer imagine those musical notes drifting 'up' to Heaven. Now I feel those musical notes drifting 'down' from heaven, surrounding me with spirituality, dancing in my ears, and resting upon my heart.

Our house is so quiet now. There is no music floating throughout the rooms. But sometimes as I sit in silence I swear I hear him playing. Is it my imagination, or is it real, or does it even really matter? All I know is that for me it is as real as anything in this silent and lonely life. I need his music so much. I did not have his music here on this earth for long enough. I did not have him here on this earth for long enough.

Shhhhh listen, there it is again. Do you hear it? I will close my eyes now so that I can 'see' him perfectly clear, sitting there .......... AT HIS PIANO.

© 2015 Christine & Robin Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001




IN MEMORY OF
Lucas Christopher Ross "Luke"
21
October 31, 1979 - April 3, 2001
Acute Bronchopneumonia




AT YOUR PIANO

Although the years have drifted by
It doesn't seem so long ago
When you were close enough to touch
As you sat at your piano.

The metronome was ticking
And your back was straight and strong
The ivories were floating
With the miracle of song.

Sweet melody engulfed the room
As your hands embraced the keys.
The echo of your music
Brought a beautiful release.

But now the keys are cold and still
The piano doesn't play
The melody that filled the house
Has somehow slipped away.

No more echo, no release.
Your hands lay still and cold
Without the ticking of your heart
The music has no soul.

Although I'm left with silence
There's something you should know.
Your music stayed within my heart
As you sat at your piano.


© 2015 - Christine Ross
~ in memory of Lucas Christopher Ross 1979 - 2001

Find and be found to discover your.....
BRINGER OF LIGHT.
The name LUCAS means Bringer of Light




FUR ELISE

Ludwig van Beethoven was well into his career and almost completely deaf when he wrote his famous piano piece, Fur Elise , in 1810 (English: "For Elise") . Is one of Beethoven's most popular compositions. Though the title of the piece comes from a discovered manuscript signed by Beethoven and dedicated to Elise, it has since been lost - sparking an interest in learning who this "Elise" could be. The score was not published until 1867, 40 years after the composer's death in 1827. The discoverer of the piece, Ludwig Nohl, affirmed that the original autographed manuscript, now lost, was dated 27 April 1810.

This small tune, no longer than 4 minutes, is perhaps just as recognizable as Beethoven's 5th and 9th symphonies, if not more. Beethoven only assigned opus numbers to his larger works, such as his symphonies. This small piano piece was never given an opus number.

(see a special presentation of this music in the NEWS SECTION, near the end of the newsletter)

~ SOURCE: WIKIPEDIA




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ANNIVERSARY AND BIRTHDAY
DEDICATIONS

FEBRUARY BIRTHDAYS

Allen Boring 32
Daniel Forester 30
Dennis Murphy 28
Dustin Ellis 16
Glen Logie 22
Jayden Ellefson 13 mos
Jeremy Storts 30
Joseph Kretsch 25
Leon Jonas 29
Manny Lopez 26
Marisa Ward 25
Timothy Roden 21
Timothy Stratton 29
Tracy Pelham 10

FEBRUARY ANNIVERSARIES

Ashley Corneau 21
Austin Joliff 10mos
Brian Markee 23
Bryan Esposito 20
Denise Mccormick 40
Dylan Ayres 15
Erika Rowan 16
Jake Feinberg 31
Jason Ainsworth 29
Katelyn Martibello 19
Tyler Vanderwall 20


IN MEMORY OF
Daniel Scott Forrester
30
2/28/70 ~ 1/10/01
lymphoma
SUBMITTED BY
Arlene (Danny's Mom)

Wishing my Danny Boy a Happy Birthday in Heaven. Feb. 28th - we will be celebrating - as we always do - with birthday cake and sending you up your balloons. The little kids look forward to this every year. If you were here on earth.....you would be celebrating you 45th birthday. WHAT ???

I wonder what it's like in Heaven. When do they stop counting ? I guess I'll find out for myself, when my day comes.

You will always be my "boy". Love you and miss you so much. Have a birthday blast on Cloud 9. DANCE with the angels !!!

Love, Mom



IN MEMORY OF
Dustin James Ellis
16
2/21/85-3/17/2001
smoke inhailation, due to housefire
SUBMITTED BY
Melanie, Dustin's Mom

Dear Dustin,

I had only 16 short years with you, but I will cherish those memories all the days of my life. I want you to know that you're always with me. There is not an hour in a day, that passes by that you have not been on my mind. Today I'll hold on to remembering that smile of your's that would light up the sky. The twinkle in your eyes that would melt my heart. I wonder what you would wish for today.... I wonder if you're celebrating...... Happy Birthday my sweet Dustin, I miss you and I love you very much...

Mom


IN MEMORY OF
Tracy Elizabeth Pelham
10 yrs
February 24,1965 - July 2, 1975
Car accident
SUBMITTED BY
Mommy

Happy Birthday Tracy Beth, my sweet daughter. You were a beautiful child, who never had a chance to grow into a Fantastic woman! Please know that you are and always will be in my heart, missed, thought of and LOVED. You, made my heart sing.....

Hugs & kisses

Mommy OXOX


IN MEMORY OF
Katelyn Nicole Martibello
19
1/4/90 - 2/14/09
car accident
SUBMITTED BY
Kathy

Kate, you were the greatest blessing that God could have ever given to me and my family. You brought us so much joy and happiness, more than we imagined possible. You were the light of our family. We love and miss you more than words could ever say my sweet girl. Can't wait to be with you.


IN MEMORY OF
Bryan Esposito
20
5/13/79-2/11/2000
unknown
SUBMITTED BY
Irene, Mom

I know you were with us for your sisters wedding, and I thank you for giving me a sign. It was so you to be thoughtful and give me some peace. We all knew when we saw that beautiful butterfly land on my corsage that it was you. For this I know that you are watching over us, and are listening to me when i speak to you. I do find some comfort, knowing this but nothing can replace having you here and being able to see your smile, hug you or enjoy a beautiful day at the beach. But your absence can never take away my memories and I cherish them daily.


IN MEMORY OF
Dennis C. Murphy Jr.
28
2/16/81-12/26/09
car accident
SUBMITTED BY
Yandell

Dennis C. Murphy Jr. was one of the bright stars in our life. Based on my experience of the death of my son has made our life in our household like a library where it is quiet, no fun, not much laughter. I was just getting to the point where I thought I could live a little bit. But you know a large part of your heart is gone and there is nothing you can do to get it back. There are always trigger moments, foods you cook, certain colors you see, certain vehicle you see, so many things to keep the memory awake in your heart. And the sad thing is when you bring your child's name up some people get uncomfortable, like your child did not exist. I couldn't choose one day to relive because there was so many wonderful days I would want to relive them all. His death was on 12/26/09 and then on 11/1/14 the only other child we had Matthew Shaun Murphy born on 11/29/82 was killed in a vehicle accident less then 2 minutes from the house. So now it's just my husband and myself and we are so lost. It's like being in a deep dark hole and we will never find our way out. He was a truck driver so we mainly had him home on the weekends, so that was something to look forward to and now we don't have that. So Heaven must be a beautiful place because it has plucked up the souls of two beautiful souls, that I gave birth to and my husband gave them their names, forever in our hearts.

Dennis & Yandell Murphy


IN MEMORY OF
Timothy Stratton
29
February-6-1979---December -7- 2008
Pencreatitis
SUBMITTED BY
Mom

My Sweet Tim,

Happy 36th Birthday in heaven. I will always love you, forget you never. The love of my life,forever and ever.

I love you ,Mom


IN MEMORY OF
Tyler Alan Vanderwall
20
April 20,1986/February 4,2007
HVOD (Hepatic Veno Occlusive Disease)
caused by thioguanine, a chemotherapy drug
SUBMITTED BY
Michelle Vanderwall

Tyler-Even though I know that you are in Heaven, it still hurts like Hell. I just MISS you so very, very much.

(February 4 is the anniversary of the day our son, Tyler Vanderwall went to heaven. It will be eight years and the pain is still as searing as the day he left us.)


IN MEMORY OF
Ashley Corneau
21 yrs old
May 11 1991 - Feb 6 2013
Hodgkin lyphoma
SUBMITTED BY
Dawn Corneau

Ashley May Corneau, May 11, 1991 - Febuarary 06, 2013. Fought Hodgkin's lymphoma for 3 yrs. She has 2 brothers, Stephen & Austin Lewis. Ashley also has a very special daughter, Brooklynn. Brooklynn is 7 yrs old & misses her mommy very very much.


In memory of
Denise Marie McCormick
40
12/7/63 - 2/28/04
Murder
SUBMITTED BY
Sherry Powell, Denise's Mom

Dear Denise,

You were my first born. You were a part of me. I almost lost you when you were born, but God let me keep you for a while and you were my life. For that I was blessed and Iím thankful for the time I was given with you.

This is the 11th year since you were so brutally taken from us and we miss you so very much every day. Living without you never gets any easier. We struggle to carry on our daily lives and appear normal, but the truth is there is no normal for us without you. There is a hole in our hearts that can never be healed. They say the pain of your grief is measured by the deepness of your love and you were loved beyond measure.

I have so much I want to share with you. I wish I could pick up the phone and call you. I wish you could stop by for a visit. I wish we could go to the Bayfront. I wish we could go for a hike or walk on the beach. My precious, beautiful daughter, I must for now be content to talk to you in heaven. Denise, I love you and miss you more than words can say. You are forever missed and forever loved and always present in our hearts and thoughts.

Sending love, hugs and kisses to heaven,

Mom

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QUOTES:

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What we have once enjoyed deeply we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us. - Helen Keller

MEMBER QUOTE:

"Our children will always be part of our Hearts." ~ Arlene (Danny's Mom)

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IN MEMORY OF
Brittany Brooks Guleff
24
5/7/85 - 3/26/10
Bronchopneumonia
SUBMITTED BY
Pam Brooks

"Silence is not golden when you lose a child" ~ Pam Brooks



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LETTERS


IN MEMORY OF
Crawford Alan Carnahan
18
August 21, 1988 ~ May 12, 2007
Leptospirosis
SUBMITTED BY
Alan ~ father to Crawford

I long to hold you and tell you how much I love you and miss you.

I didn't tell you I loved you very often or you me. Just a "guy" thing. But I showed you how much you meant to me. Now I look back and wished that I had shown you much more. We take for granted that we will always see each other everyday.

I've looked back at all those times that I should have taken the time to be together with you. I feel so guilty, because, now, it's too late. My only child; my everything. You cannot be replaced even if I had another.

The only son of an only son. Without grandchildren from you; our last name will now die after I'm gone.

I will keep your memory alive the best that I can for the rest of my life. You left a hole in my heart that will never mend. If possible; your name will be the last word uttered from my lips before I die.

Please be there to greet your dad to the here after.

Your loving father......



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LIFE STORIES


IN MEMORY OF
Daniel Scott Forrester
30
2/28/70 ~ 1/10/01
lymphoma
SUBMITTED BY
Arlene (Danny's Mom)

Danny was born Feb.28th, 1970. In those days, no one could stay with you in the labor room. I was put in a room, and screamed for 20 + hours. I truly thought I was going to die. I got up to jump out of the window, but the window had bars on it. I thought "if I don't die, I'll NEVER have another baby". I didn't die. I had my beautiful Danny boy. 8 lbs. 10 ou. He looked like a clone of his Dad. He had to stay in the hospital for a week as he had some issues. He was my gift from Heaven. He died 30 years later. I was blessed with my amazing son for 30 years. Thanking the Lord for allowing me to be Danny's Mom. I keep him safe in my heart and I know someday we will be together again......this time FOREVER.

We will be celebrating your life on your birthday as we do every year. We miss you and love you always and forever.

BTW - my family didn't stop at Danny's birth. I have 4 other children, and 8 grandchildren. Their brother/uncle watches over them from Heaven.



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POETRY


IN MEMORY OF
Joey Whiteman
21 years, 360 days
9/8/80-9/3/02
auto accident/blunt force trauma to aoerta
SUBMITTED BY
Joey's Mom (in Heaven with Joey)

WHEN DON'T I THINK OF YOU?

When raindrops fall, I feel you
When morning comes, I see you,
When evening comes I miss you,
When snowflakes come, I wait for you.

When winter comes I'm lonely,
When summer comes I need you,
When spring is here and all seems right,
Rebirth of all that's you.

Love, Mom



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SIGNS


IN MEMORY OF
Bryan Esposito
20
5/13/79-2/11/2000
unknown
SUBMITTED BY
Irene Esposito

I am writing this because a sign from my son saved me for my daughters wedding. My daughter was married this past October. For months before the wedding I stressed that I wouldnt be able to get through the day. I wanted so much not to break down. It was so important for me to be strong for her. As I got out of the limo, a butterfly flew on to my flowers and just stayed there. Even when I moved it didnt fly away. It was a sign that Bryan was with us, and it gave me such a feeling of calm.

I wanted to share this, to let others know that signs from our children are there, and hopefully it will give you all some comfort as it did for me.



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IN THEIR OWN WORDS

written or said by our children


IN MEMORY OF
Stephen Matthew Wilson
20
june 2 1981-dec 11 2001
auto accident
SUBMITTED BY
Cheryl

When Stephen was a toddler we were trying to teach him his "yes please" and/or "no thank you anyway". He got the yes please down perfect after a while, but then for his "no thank you anyway" he would say "kunka wee wee" (rhymes with bunka). One day he wanted to say our meal blessing so he folded his hands together, bowed his head and said "KUNKA WEE WEE KUNKA WEE WEE KUNKA WEE WEE AMEN".

We have told that story over and over thru the years. Our two grandsons love the story. It brings a smile to our faces every time we talk about his kunka wee wee. :-)

Cheryl Wilson
Stephen's Mom
June 2, 1981 - Dec 11, 2001.



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SPECIAL MEMORIES


IN MEMORY OF
Adam R. Fiock
26
July 1st 1981 - October 6th, 2007
Self inflicted GSWH
SUBMITTED BY
Christine, Adam's M♡M

When Adam was overseas in Iraq, I sent him a medal of St. George, the patron saint of soldiers, for Valentine's day. I knew he couldn't wear the chain, but he pinned it to his uniform. I found the box, chain, everything but the medal. I hope one day I can find it. I don't know why the ex or anyone would take it since it was engraved from me.



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DREAMS


IN MEMORY OF
Crawford Alan Carnahan
18
August 21, 1988 ~ May 11, 2007
Leptospirosis
SUBMITTED BY
Alan ~ father of Crawford

On Thursday morning; at approximately 4:00AM, December 24th 2010 (Christmas Eve), Crawford came to me in a dream.

This was the 1st time that Crawford actually came face to face with me (within 2 feet from me) and talked to me. I have had dreams of him in the past; but, I could only see him in the distance. When I saw him face to face; I gasped and couldn't talk at first.

I then found the words and said, "Crawford, it's been 3 years and over 7 months... I am so glad to see you, son." He looked a little older and now had a mustache and chin hair (not younger as parents dream of their children, I have heard). Crawford didn't touch me or hug me. He looked sad. All he said to me was; "I know, Dad", "I can't stay", "I need you to see this".......

Crawford showed me a door. I pushed the door open and it opened into a huge open space where hundreds of men were walking around. They were all walking around in a leisure fashion. All the men had leisure clothing on. Within all of these men walking around; I saw that one was standing...a man that I recognized. It was my ex-father in-law, Lowell "Red" Woodard, who died on July 13th 2001 (July 13th was his daughter's; Crawford's mother's birthday). "Red" stood there looking and smiling at me. Then he "winked" at me. There was no sound and no one spoke a word, though.

I then looked again at all the men walking around the room and once again I saw another man standing with his back to me. I recognized his hair cut from the back. This man turned around, looked at me and seemed to be totally surprised to see me... It was my father in-law (my "present" wife's father), Raymond Loy. Raymond, died earlier this year on April 4th 2010. When he saw me; his mouth came open in astonishment.

It was then that I started to wake up... I started crying and saying..."No...No..No...don't go" "I've got to get back". I tried to fall back asleep so that I could get back into the dream; but, I couldn't.

I have wondered since then; "Why" was I given this "dream"? I was close to both of my father-in-laws; but, why would I be dreaming about them? I had never dreamt of them before. I could only guess, why... Crawford wanted to make this dream, "real". A contact, instead of a dream. Showing me something that would "really" get my attention and stand out. Not just a dream of him (Which I was wanting). Crawford showed me that he and my father-in-laws really do still exist in the hereafter.



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FUNNY MEMORIES OF OUR CHILDREN


IN MEMORY OF
Randy Reed Hecox
30 Years
1/7/69 to 7/23/99
GSH
SUBMITTED BY
Ali Hecox

When Donna was born he could not say Reyna... Thats what we were going to call her by her middle name, but Randy always said Baby Donna. She was his Baby Donna. He got a toy tractor for Christmas and he hauled her in the cart behind it all over the house. I still have a picure of them in that tractor and cart. Also Randy's parents and grandparents were from the country. So when he was small we got him a pair of overalls, and he leaned over and looked between his legs after he got them on. He was so funny . I also have a picture of that as well. He loved his baby Donna so much. He shared everything with her, candy and all. People would ask him who is that girl Randy and he'd tell them "That's my Baby Donna". They were 2 years apart almost to the day.



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OUR CHILDREN'S ACHIEVEMENTS, TALENTS, HONORS, AWARDS, AND UNIQUE CHARACTERISTICS


IN MEMORY OF
Daniel Scott Forrester
30
2/28/70 ~ 1/10/01
lymphoma
SUBMITTED BY
Arlene (Dan's Mom)

When Danny was a senior in high school, he suffered from anxiety attacks. One time the school called an ambulance and took him to the nearest hospital. He was in there for a few days. At the time I was actually doing my clinical training (nurse) in the same hospital. Danny was put on anti-depressants. He said he wasn't depressed but that he just couldn't breathe. During his hospital stay, he was walking the hall, and he noticed a very elderly woman in the next room over who never seemed to have any visitors. He went in and sat with her. She smiled at him but could not (or would not) speak. The night nurse told me a couple days later, that the woman had died and that Danny sat with her for hours. He didn't want her to die alone. I was so proud of my son. He had such a compassionate heart, and a soft spot for the elderly.



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MEMORIALS

ROAD SIDE, HEADSTONE, URN, GARDEN, DISPLAY, PUBLICATION, BENCH, STATUE, PLAQUE, BRICK, SIGN, STONE, ROOM, SPORT, PLACE, WEB SITE, POEM, STORY, BALLOON, CAKE, ITEM .....


IN MEMORY OF
Christopher Ronald Faller
7-1/2 years
May 7, 1990 - March 24, 1998
viral tumors after successful piggyback heart transplant
SUBMITTED BY: Maria, Christopher's mommy

After our son Christopher passed, our biggest fear was that Christopher would be forgotten. We met with our parish's pastor at the time, Father Paul, and he suggested that we could donate a statue to our parish in memory of Christopher. We wanted to develop a statue that would keep Christopher's memory alive, and that would also be a statue for all children. After weeks of trying to find a design that would be for everyone, my husband remembered a statue that Sister Helen had given to Christopher when he was in her kindergarten class. The statue is of a little boy standing in front of his guardian angel. It took my husband a good six months to find an artist that could create Christopher's likeness from pictures. The sculpture was done by Orlandi Statuary in Chicago, IL, and the image of Christopher is the exact size he was when he died. To make the statue for all children, we added a little girl. We chose the model Christopher would have picked to hold hands with, his little sister, Rachel. The children are in color representing all boys and all girls in this world, while the angel is in white, representing God's world. The angel has his hands on the children to guide and protect them as is written on the guardian angel prayer on the plaque at the base of the statue. Christopher's guardian angel must have been very powerful. We were told Chris was going to die when he was only three days old, and yet he was guided through many dangerous and difficult times, and somehow he never lost hope and always had tremendous faith in God.

If you want to see pictures of Christopher's statue, please visit this web page -- http://legobeaver.com/christopher/statue/statue.html



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QUESTION ANSWERED:

How would you define the grief that is felt with the loss of your child? Explain
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IN MEMORY OF
Shannon David Burns
33
1/2/76 to 10/30/09
head injury
SUBMITTED BY
Christine

How would you define the grief that is felt with the loss of your child?

It has been 5 years since my oldest son passed from a head injury. We never got to say goodbyes and he passed one week after his son turned a year old. It was also October 30th and the holidays were just around the corner. AND his birthday is January 2nd. We had a lot to get through all at once.

The first year was hard for all of us. We seemed to just go through the motions to get through those family gatherings. I have heard people say the first year is the hardest but for me, I honestly think the 2nd and 3rd years were my hardest. The first year I was numb, but the next few years reality really hit. Then life became different for us.

You never stop grieving but your life is forever changed. One special person is missing and that is felt in everything you do and say. I find I continually want to tell people about him but as time goes on you will find people are uncomfortable when you bring up his name. I just don't want him to be forgotten and it makes me feel so good to remember him.

I still have bouts of crying but I have tried to turn them into remembering some of the wonderful memories he left us. That has really worked for me. We all talk about him as if he was still here and often share wonderful memories when we get together.

For me the emptiness is always there and I look for signs everywhere. The first year I read every book I could get my hands on to see if there is life after death. I do believe there is life after death and they can communicate with us through dreams. I cherish those dreams when they come. Just to see his smiling face is heart touching. One of the signs he gives me is that I find dimes in the most unusual places. I keep them all in a jar. I guess whatever works for you is perfectly ok. If it brings your heart some peace, it is a good thing.

I had a hard time getting back to living life. Life does not stop for our loss. But once I started getting back into everyday things it has helped me move on. Like I said, life is different now for me but I no longer feel guilty enjoying the good times and making new memories. Do what feels right in your heart. I hope my leg of this journey has helped you.

Christine (Shannon's Mom)



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BLESSINGS


IN MEMORY OF
Katelyn Nicole Martibello
19
1/4/90 - 2/14/09
car accident
SUBMITTED BY
Kathy

On Valentine's day, my Katelyn will be gone 6 years. :( She passed away in a car accident at the age of 19, she was my only child. Shortly after she died my sister felt something urging her to write a poem. She said she had no intention of writing one, but something was compelling her to write it. We believe it came from God. The words just came into her head.

"Katelyn's Garden"

You came to us gently for such a short time
Like a butterfly softly floating on a summer breeze
You gave love and joy to every flower in your garden
With your sweet smile and beautiful music
All around you, would flourish and grow
Then all to swiftly - the reason not known
You floated away into that most majestic garden of all
The music has stopped, the colors are gone,
The rain is unending, Your earthly garden cries
Now all we must do is watch for that summer day,
When we will see your gossamer wings again
When will that sweet summer come?
Friends are flowers in the garden of life
Your flowers miss you sweet butterfly



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IN MEMORY OF
Adam R. Fiock
26
July 1st 1981 - October 6th, 2007
Self inflicted GSWH
SUBMITTED BY
Christine, Adam's M♡M

Dear Christine,

Thank you as always for the newsletter. The story about Luke and his dad's skiing trip was so sweet. It reminded me of a time on Adam's birthday, July 1st, in 2005. He was staying with me waiting to go overseas. He had expected to leave, and then the date was postponed.

We had plans to go out to eat and see a movie. He called me and told me his friends wanted to take him out. I assured him that we could go out another time. It just reminded me of the feeling when your husband told Luke he would wait for him.


IN MEMORY OF
Laurie Michelle Baer
16
10-31-76; 12-4-92
congenital heart defect
SUBMITTED BY
Shirley, Lauries Mommy

I read all of the stories and I began to cry. My heart goes out to everyone who has lost a child. It has been 22 years since I lost Laurie but reading the stores brought every raw emotion back to me. Each person describes the very same feelings that I felt then and still feel now. No matter how long our child has been gone the pain never goes away. We would give anything we have if they could be with us again. I pray for all of us grieving parents every day and night. May God watch over us and bring us strength.



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LATEST NEWS ..... UPDATE OF OUR CHILDREN'S PHOTO ALBUM

Please take a look at our children's photo album filled with so many beautiful faces. Many photos have been added this month. Also, the photo album has a whole new look in memory of our children. Take a look as you remember each child that is represented. The address for the photo album is below. If you would like your child's photo in our photo album please send your child's photo and name to bringeroflight01@msn.com



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LIST OF QUESTIONS

CHOOSE A QUESTION FROM THE LIST BELOW TO ANSWER:

1. What do you think Heaven is like?

2. Based on your personal experience what would you say to someone that has just lost their child and what hope could you give them?

3. How long has your child been gone physically and how long does it seem like your child has been gone? Explain

4. Do you feel as if your child has been forgotten by some family members and friends? Explain

5. Do you think our children that have died miss us? Explain

6. How has the death of your child changed you?

7. If you could choose to relive any day that you spent with your child, what day would you choose and why?

8. How would you define the grief that is felt with the loss of a child?

9. How has your life changed between the day your child died and now?

10. Does your child communicate with you from the other side? Explain






DEDICATION NAMES

If you have ever made a submission to the Bringer of Light Newsletter or if you have provided your child's information, your child's name should appear at the top of the Dedications Section when it is their anniversary or birthday. If you have not provided your child's information you may do so by replying to the BRINGER OF LIGHT NEWSLETTER email (please type INFORMATION in the subject line). You may also write a dedication to be included below the section names for your child's special dates to be placed in a future newsletter.






FUR ELISE

with beautiful scenery

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Special thanks for Bringer of Light Newsletter submissions this month:

Melanie, Dustin's Mom
Mommy of Tracy
Kathy, Mom of Katelyn
Arlene, Dan's Mom
Irene, Bryan's Mom
Yandell, Mom of Dennis and Matthew
Mom of Timothy
Michelle Vanderwall, Mom of Tyler
Pam Brooks, Mom of Brittany
Alan, Father to Crawford
Joey's Mom
Irene Esposito, Momm of Bryan
Cheryl, Mom of Stephen
Christine, Adam's Mom
Ali Hecox, Mom of Randy
Maria, Christopher's Mommy
Christine, Mom of Shannon
Shirley, Laurie's Mommy
Dawn Corneau, Ashley's Mom
Sherry Powell, Denise's Mom

Thanks also for all of the wonderful submissions that will be featured in an upcoming Bringer of Light newsletter. Those who submitted will be notified when their submission will be included in the newsletter and also which month it will be featured in. Everyone is encouraged to make submissions to be placed in a future newsletter for ANY of the catagories . You may do so by clicking on the 'submit button' below:






Music playing:

FUR ELISE





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Submissions are needed for many of the Bringer of Light Newsletter sections for future newsletters. YOU MAY SUBMIT UP TO A YEAR IN ADVANCE (just be sure to include the month your submission is for). Submissions are placed in the order that they are received and/or for a relevant month. Your submissions are the essence of the newsletter. So start typing and send in those submissions ASAP! Please go to the link below the section list to see a chart of available sections for future newsletters.


DEDICATIONS: Make a dedication to your child for their anniversary of birthday.

QUOTES: Share a quote relating to grief.

LETTERS TO HEAVEN: Write a letter to your child in Heaven.

LIFE STORY: Share the story of your child's life, your child's birth, your child's death, or all of these.

POETRY: Share a poem about your grief or your child.

SIGNS FROM THE OTHER SIDE: Share a sign that you or someone else received from your child.

IN THEIR OWN WORDS: Share a story, poem, quote, or anything written or spoken by your child.

MEMORIES: Share a special memory that you or someone else has of your child at any age.

DREAMS: Share a dream that you or someone else had of your child.

HUMOR: Share a funny memory you or someone else has of your child at any age.

PRIDE: Share an achievement, talent, unique characteristic, or anything that makes you proud of your child.

MEMORIALS: Share any way that you have memorialized your child.

QUESTION: Share your answer to one of the questions about grief.
(See list of questions in the NEWS section and/or the SUBMISSIONS page.

BLESSINGS: Share how you have been blessed at anytime in your life.

COMMENTS: Share a comment that you may have for any of the sections in the Bringer of Light newsletter.


When you enter the SUBMISSION PAGE there are monthly charts that show submissions made in honor of the child's name listed in black. The carts represents an entire year. You are invited to submit to any of the available sections for any month. You may see the charts by clicking on the button below:

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"VISIT WITH LUKE"

Last Entry in Luke's Journal:

"When there is love in my heart and a smile on my face,
I need nothing else." ~ Luke Ross

"MAY THE FORCE BE WITH YOU"